Wow, what a year it has been. Many highs and many lows and somewhere in between I feel a deep sense of gratitude and mourning. Looking back having thought I would have achieved more, yet also realising I’ve achieved beyond what I thought was possible. Realising that no one ever has it figured out and that we’re all just playing this game called life.

What you think about expands and that’s why dealing with your ‘issues and/or problems’ is so important. So you can move past the shitty foggy fear based stories that you’re telling yourself and holding yourself back! And remember you weren’t born with the beliefs, you simply picked them up and downloaded them into yourself from other people's beliefs. Time to upgrade?

Throwing a pity party will only make you feel like crap, by dragging the problem out! We all know that feeling and why the heck do we let ourselves?

The trick is catching yourself when you have these moments, do you know that fear and gratitude can’t live in the same moment, so which will you choose?

So here I was, between two power house women, having no idea what I was in for, but knowing whatever Karen was on, I wanted some of that! We exchanged emails and she sent me some info. I clearly remember sitting at Burleigh hill watching Dr. Ruden and thinking that looks easy and light, surely it’s too good to be true?

it was then that I realized, That everything on the outside was only a reflection of what was going on within me and what I genuinely  thought of myself, I felt, Empty, worthless and not enough.

So in turn not listening to my intuition made me learn some lessons, these were lessons from years of not learning, years of not putting myself first, years of living with anxiety and years of self-pity and living in a victim state!

So here I am, 28 and I have finally realized that maybe, quite possibly my relationship with love is just a puzzled mess of sneaking around and keeping secrets, because love isn't meant to be talked about, love between two people has to be complicated in order for it to 'work'. Until this point, this has seemed so normal to have this belief system.